i don't think i reminisce about old times as much as i think about certain friendships i miss. the camaraderie
of groups i was involved with. yeah, i miss that stuff. i guess i'm just that much further away from it all
though, in time and space.
i chat online every now and then with some ex-caisa exec friends... i miss
the meetings, the organizing of events, even the stress of rumours and tensions... now, we're scattered all over
the planet, which is good in one way in that i could always have a place to stay whenever i visit ppl, but then
the likelihood that we could all get together again for some chilloungin'... well, let's say it's slim to none.
and then i think about acf and the great times i had there, esp.
the last year i was at western. now, the froshies that year are graduating. and i know so few ppl there, it's
frankly quite depressing. i see such great things happening and i wanna be a part of it so desperately... and
i know that i'm past that point in my life. gotta make things happen where i'm at. stop dwelling in the past.
anyways... i was helping my bro check out some flights since he's
planning to come to europe next year... i went to the travel cuts website
and i happened to notice the swap (student work abroad programme) link... that triggered a whole ton of memories
for me...
i used to cruise by the travel cuts office at western every now and then and pick up those brochures, wondering
how i would ever get to travel in europe. i wondered if i could do this swap thing. i planned the grad trip i
thought i was gonna do, starting as early as second year. i dunno. i guess i've always had that kinda
wanderlust... bitten by the travel bug...
and now i'm here. it seems so different from those days, when i thought i'd never get the chance to do any
extended travelling. wow. i know lots of friends think i'm so lucky to be here, and i don't doubt that, but at
the same time, they don't know about the desire to be back home, to be involved in those groups as i mentioned
above. <sigh> can't have your cake and eat it too.
12.8.2003 dreams are too funny
just a quick little update about the past week or so...
for a good laugh, check out the xanga of karen,
particularly this entry...
tons of ppl msg'd me about it... i thought it was quite funny, but out of character i think? maybe not...
nothing really happened last week of interest... well, i hosted my smd small
group bible study at my place last tuesday... it was coolz. biggest turnout since the first week. still doing
the book of
esther, now on chapter 7...
on friday night we had a department christmas dinner... it was alright. the best part though was the gift
exchange... instead of buying something, we were told to bring something that you wanted to get rid of... well, i
don't think the gifts were all that bad, but one person (i dunno who) took it pretty literally, and brought this
old, ratty waffle iron. i almost got stuck with it, but luckily, i was able to pawn it off on stefanie...
saturday night, i went to hannover with chris for a party... jason's gf, nina, was throwing a combined birthday,
christmas and housewarming party... so a bunch of us from aachen came up to visit her and her new hannover
friends... it was coolz... met a bunch of new ppl there, including antoinette and julia, fellow asian adoptees...
pics to come...
i had to leave hannover early on sunday morning to catch the train to köln... 3 hours, even with the ice train!
well, needless to say, i kinda zombied through service, and then i met up with chris to go to joe champs to watch
some nfl... met an african-american guy named anton who djs around germany... he said he might come to check out
ibc in the future...
alrighty, i'm out.
12.13.2003 get comfy for this one...
i changed my intro blurb to a quote of the day thing... i'll post some witty or insightful things i hear and read
there from time to time...
i mentioned karen's dream in
my last entry... well, turns out that it's not just her who's having
weird dreams... lyds said
she dreamed about marrying a friend of hers... she wouldn't say who it was, but
gabe thinks it's me... i dunno. i'll need confirmation on that. but
to have starred in two ppl's dreams... coolz!
matthias, frank, björn, tobias, matthias, judith (l to r)
anyhoo, so here are some pics, like i promised last time... i mentioned a while back
(in this entry) about the
smd regional meeting i went to... i didn't really elaborate on it back then, so
i'll take this lull in my journalling to write something about it... oh, btw, smd stands for
studentenmission in deutschland, which basically means "students' mission in germany"...
roland, another björn, girl a, boy b, girl c and petra (l to r)
(obviously, i've forgotten a, b and c's names)
well, like i said before, it was all in german, so i didn't really understand very much... my german is limited
to basic conversation, and of course, when discussing biblical things, that's anything but basic. it was a bit
different from all the other retreats i've been to, in the programming sense... but still good to be there...
some late-night chilloungin'...
there were a couple of large group things, a small group exercise, a bit of praise & worship, a bit of quiet
time... normally it's structured so that you have a couple things that repeat over the couple days... but no,
there wasn't anything repeated, except the large group things, i guess. of course, the one thing that did happen
on both friday and saturday nights was the spontaneous hanging out in the dining area... lotsa chilloungin' and
p&w there...
practicing for the service
i just thought it was coolz to be back in the kind of setting where God was the focus and everyone was praying
and praising and worshipping and having a good time. ok, i got sick after the weekend (it was
bloody cold in the basement where the men slept), but good times nonetheless...
matthias, petra and susanne
i think it's a bit difficult to see ppl living out lives with christian values in europe... i won't say christian
lifestyle, cuz i think most ppl have some stereotypes of what that means, but in general, i think most ppl think,
somewhat correctly, that europe is more secular than north america is... but it's definitely great to see and to
meet ppl who take their faith seriously, no matter where they come from... awesome.
anyhoo... so that was the smd retreat. oh yeah, if you've noticed that the pics are a bit more vibrant, a bit
better-looking, well, it's not cuz i've become a better photographer... i've finally discovered the
auto levels function in ps7. amazing. how did i ever get by without it? i'll slowly correct
my old pics...
centre of hannover, looking towards the hbf
aight, i'm on a roll, so i'll keep going with the pics... last weekend was nina's big party in hannover (which is
actually spelled hanover in german)... chris and i chilled a bit in the city, having a really
good italian dinner, before going to nina's place... the centre (at least, the part i saw) looks really nice, and
their main train station has got to be the nicest one i've ever been to...
me (west side!), jason (boozed-up) and chris (token white guy)
i wasn't really sure about going at first, but nina made a personal plea to convince me to go... hahaha... she
said there were gonna be a lot of girls there. single girls. cute single girls. hahaha... so i
reluctantly accepted her invitation... i mean, when your friend beseeches you, you can't very
well say "no", right? ok, well, that might not be totally true, but that's my story, and i'm sticking to it.
:P
dahlia, julia and antoinette
so anyways, i didn't meet a whole lotta ppl there... actually, just a couple of nina's new roommates, including
jan, who is a music fiend... he's got a whole boatload of djembes, 2 guitars (acoustic and electric) and a bass,
plus a couple amps... nice. not like matt's collection of stuff, but
still... anyhoo, i also met julia and antoinette, two fellow asian adoptees... julia is korean, like nina, and i
think antoinette is filipina-chinese, or something like that...
julia and silvie
anyhoo, evidence of how wacky the night got: we were dancing to some old beatles' classics, on lp...
on LP! 33rpm! how funny is that... didn't get to see much of the city, but it seems pretty
nice... i'll have to go back again sometime... at least i'd have a place to stay! in hamburg too, where
antoinette lives... actually, i'm probably going to visit her in the time between christmas and new year's...
coolz, coolz...
tired of reading yet? almost done... yesterday was the company-wide christmas party... it was in some
castle-like place not too far away... good food, good friends (see you tonight! oh gosh... does
the keg still use that slogan?)... met a german student helper,
friederike, and we chilled together for the second half of the night... got digits afterwards too, heheheh...
anyhoo, start of the yahoo fantasy football playoffs, and i'm in all
of them, all 4 pools... biggest one is the one against andrew and
his big game dinos...
and yes, to all those who have been asking... kitty is going to visit me... arriving on
tuesday actually... should be coolz. we'll catch lotr3 when it comes out here... ok, enough for today, right?
i'm out...
12.14.2003 my inaugural friday five
my first attempt at the friday five (albeit a tad late), this one from
dec. 12...
1. do you enjoy the cold weather and snow for the holidays?
i love snow more than i like cold, but i guess you can't really have one without the other. well, you could have
cold without snow... but definitely, snow is awesome. cold is alright, down to -10° Celsius, as long as the
wind isn't too harsh... but gimme lotsa snow. nice packing snow, not too wet but not too powdery. white
christmas all the way!
2. what is your ideal holiday celebration? how, where, with whom would you celebrate to make
things perfect?
i'm not really sure what an ideal holiday celebration would be... it depends what you're celebrating. but
assuming this means christmas, it would be at home, with my family, eating my mom's famous roast beef, with tons
of yummy mashed potatoes and gravy... we'd all sit and talk and have a good time in each other's company, and
a fire roaring in the fireplace would be sweet, even though the one in our house doesn't work... then at the end
of the night, a nice present-opening session...
3. do you do have any holiday traditions?
no real traditions aside from opening all the presents together... me and
my bro used to have to wait until boxing day (that's the day after
christmas, for those not in the know) to open our presents, but we slowly moved it up to christmas when everyone
started getting busy with post-christmas activities...
4. do you do anything to help the needy?
particularly at this time of year? not really... i've tried to be a bit more conscientious with my gift-giving
though, making sure my gifts are actually useful and appreciated... otherwise, i try to donate money to charities
on other ppl's behalf...
5. what one gift would you like for yourself?
for myself, i don't really need anything... but a plane ticket home would be nice.
12.20.2003 she's just learning, officer...
i've really meant to blog before now, but it just hasn't happened... obviously... sorry about that... ok, so a
quick recap of the week so far...
football pools: only playing for the championship in 1 of 4 pools. so sucky. all the underdogs won in all 4
pools. i was the higher seed last week in 3 of 4 pools, but which team makes it through? the one i don't expect
to... man, it's like all my guys decided to mail it in last week. brutal...
so christmas is almost upon us... merry christmas and happy new year to all, in case you don't read this blog
again after today... unfortunately, i have to be on-call for all the workdays after the 23rd... that's really not
so bad, since i only have to leave my cell phone on... don't have to be on-site. yay. hamburg plans are still a
go...
so kitty came to visit... she's studying in italy this year, after
finishing a diploma at ocad... so you're either wondering who kitty is, or how
i know her... hahaha... funny story actually, almost like
someone else finding their fiancé... :P
so you remember a couple months ago when friendster wasn't already passé?
yeah, i was clicking on friends of friends' pages and i happened across kitty's page, which said she was in
italy... i thought that was quite interesting, so i msg'd her and we started emailing... she wasn't going home
for christmas so i invited her to come visit, and now here she is!
anyways, so after a couple days of wandering around on her own (no snickering,
karen!), we went to maastricht today... walked around
the old city centre before hooking up a nice chinese dinner at wen chow... she was so glad to have real chinese
rice again, it was hilarious...
and then we went to watch lord of the rings: return of the
king... great movie. best of the trilogy. ending dragged on a bit, but without having read the books
yet, i can imagine peter jackson was just trying to be faithful to the story...
after the movie, we touched 220kph in the rented bmw on the way back to aachen... heh, kitty was a little edgy
for a couple seconds there... and then we went to the empty wal-mart parking lot to teach her to drive stick...
well, all was going well up to the point the cops came by. that's right, the polizei came
around for some questioning... apparently it's illegal for someone without a license to even be learning to drive
here... luckily, kitty had her license and there wasn't really anything they could do except recommend another
place for our adventures... ah wellz.
so tomorrow, the young adults' fellowship at ibc, one tea for 12, will be
having the christmas potluck dinner... should be good, but i'm not sure how many people to expect. i guess we'll
find out.
alright, time to post.
12.23.2003 i'll be home for christmas... not!
woohoo! home free! that's right, boys and girls, uncle steve is off for the holidays! actually, i'm
technically on-call for tomorrow morning, next monday and tuesday and the morning of the 31st. but if the past
couple days were any indication, i won't be needed.
so kitty left this morning... we had some really good spanish food
last night at paella... yes, the name of the restaurant was paella. we also ate paella. coincidence? i think
not...
kitty and me
i think she had a pretty good time here, even if it's not exactly a hotbed of artistic wonder... but she kept
saying that she was all "museumed" out... i guess doing it every day in barcelona and brussels can do that to you
but i'm not much of a museum person to begin with... i think she enjoyed being here though, just to have time to
chill, see what life is like here, to meet ppl from my church and
fellowship, to eat chinese and japanese food again...
the christmas potluck for one tea for 12 went pretty well, even though there were fewer ppl
there than i expected... we'll chalk it up to the christmas holiday time and it being sorta unknown... hopefully
more ppl will come out when we start our regular program in january... there were still some new faces though,
and for that, we're thankful. christian and claudia led a short bible study on the old testament prophecies that
were fulfilled by the birth of Jesus Christ... it was good. learned new stuff.
have i explained the whole thing behind the name of our young adults group? we chose it to represent the verse
we base our fellowship on: 1 tim 4:12. "don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an
example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity." (niv)
alzira and me
i also got to meet up with alzira on sunday night... that was great! i hadn't seen her since i left
western 2.5 years ago... she was visiting germany to hang out with her parents
for a week (they live in hk), and they did a little mini-tour of germany and amsterdam... we met up at the new
starbucks near the köln cathedral and got to chat for about 1.5 hours... it sucks that we couldn't have hung out
longer, but at least we got to see each other... it was pretty hectic trying to organize that already!
anyhoo, the one damper on the weekend was that i discovered friday night that someone jacked the brakes off my
bike. seriously! i was walking back from dinner with kitty and i just went to squeeze the brake levers as i
sometimes do when i walk past it (it's locked up outside)... except this time, there was no tension in the wire.
i looked down and the whole brake was gone! front and rear, both wires snipped... dang nab it! that really
sucks man...
matt's annual christmas potluck dinner is tonight and it's the first
year since, well, since he started having them that i won't be there... tragic, i know... :P but in any case,
whatever you're doing for this holiday season, remember to party hardy and drive sobery!
merry christmas, everyone!
12.26.2003 no boxing day in germany
well, i hope everyone's Christmas was merry... i spent it in köln with church friends... we had a morning service
which only a handful of people attended, and then a few of us (claudia, dawn, volker, volker's uncle dirk and
myself) went for lunch and hung out a while before going to pastor david's place for dinner... there were like,
20 people there, a lot more than i expected... most were non-germans and/or living away from home, so it was nice
to have a place to gather and such...
i rang up a whole bunch of people to wish them a Merry Christmas, mostly people i hadn't talked to in quite some
time... i think i was on the phone for a total of about 4 hours. crazy... hahaha... talked for a bit with my
parents and my brother, and then for a while with wing and hoang... we
were going over some potential names for their baby, expected around the end of february...
also mananged to get a hold of yung, jnet and frances... that was coolz. frances, hoang and 14 other people from
tcmc (my home church) are heading to urbana tonight! can't believe it's already
here... only seems like yesterday (ok, really 3 years ago) that wing, hoang, hosanna and myself were the ones
experiencing it... hahaha, hoang also said that my handling of the buses last time was way better than the ones
ivcf is doing now... i don't get props from hoang too often (at least, not to my
face) so that was very appreciated...
i also talked to a whole bunch of ppl at matt's little shindig last
tuesday... a lot of old friends like nancy, wayne, joanne... apparently, i also missed mark by a few minutes and
the amazing news that minh is expecting a "new arrival" sometime next summer! wow!
anyhoo, i won 1 of 4 football pools... finished 3rd in another and 4th in the other 2 pools... pretty
disappointing finish to the season, especially how i crushed the field in one pool's regular season by going 12-2
and then tanked the 2 playoff matchups. brutal. key for next season - draft reliable receivers.
i was gonna post another friday five, but that'll have to wait until
tomorrow cuz there's a couple other things i wanna write about... and sorry, no pics today.
ok, little rant in the middle of this festive season... i cannot stand it when people shorten Christmas to xmas.
it drives me insane. i understand the inherent laziness of most people, and i know that many people aren't
christian either. what gets me going is when christians do it. out of all the times when Christ is emphasized
(and let's not forget that Jesus is "the reason for the season"), why do christians insist on leaving out Christ
from Christmas?
alright, enough of that. one more thing before i go grab some lunch... people seem to have been posting about
dreams lately (karen and
lyds), so i thought i'd share one i had last night. now, i'm not sure
what it was that brought it on... don't think it was something i ate or watched before i went to bed, but...
well, you figure it out.
i was getting married (and no, andrew, it wasn't lyds) and it
totally wasn't what i expected, in hindsight... it was taking place in what seemed to be some sort of big
conference room, or something. matt wasn't there (at least, i didn't see him) and he wasn't my best man, but
my best man didn't even show up. my parents weren't there, but my brother was, and it was all friends from back
home, none from germany.
i can't remember who i was getting married to... i sorta remember the face, but i don't recognize it when i think
about it... she was beautiful though, not like keira knightley
beautiful, but pretty gorgeous nonetheless... i think i was only dreaming about the reception, cuz she wasn't
wearing a normal white wedding gown, but more like a formal cocktail dress, dark in colour, but not black...
i remember what i was wearing though cuz i thought it was pretty ghetto and i needed to leave to go home to get
my suit, but then i was like, it'll take so long to drive home and pick it up and come back, i thought i would
miss 1.5 hours of the reception. then i thought i could get someone else to get it for me, but i couldn't find
anyone and then my cell phone was on the blitz... argh!
well, that's about when i woke up... weird eh? any thoughts? too bad i don't have a comments section...
12.29.2003 i should go into film. or something.
congrats are in order... rené and sandra got married in south africa last saturday... nice! they should be in
some other place besides cape town now, on their honeymoon... rené comes back sometime in mid-january, and then
hopefully sandra will follow in a couple months...
big props as well for carol as she got accepted into the jd program at
the u of t law school! awesome! i think i will steal a tiny sliver of
credit here for being the one to tell her to apply for the jd program instead of the llb... :P
anyways, so i'm gonna head up to hamburg on new year's day for a few days to visit antoinette and to check the
city out... no plans for new year's eve though. i dunno. usually i'd be game for a big party, but only if there
are lots of friends involved... and now, there's like no one around here. hence, the lack of plans. not to
worry though. at the least, i'll go out to check out the fireworks.
so what have i been doing lately? well, aside from sleeping in and vegging around the house, i've been watching
a lot of movies. five, actually, since i wrote about
lotr: rotk...
on Christmas eve, i saw elf and
s.w.a.t.. elf
was a cute movie, predictable in all its kiddie glory, but enjoyable nonetheless.
will farrell is darn hilarious; just look at him. and i
thought zooey deschanel, the other store elf, was quite cute
and had a nice voice too. good Christmas fare.
s.w.a.t. was a bit too formulaic though. i mean, it was still watchable, cuz
samuel l. jackson is his usual over-the-top self, and
ll cool j (going by his actual given name, james todd smith)
was alright too. he's no ice cube, but then, he's not
ice-t either. i didn't see the last bit coming though, with
the tj character, so maybe it was alright.
on the weekend, i caught 3 movies... freaky friday
and intolerable cruelty on saturday, and
mystic river yesterday.
freaky friday was, quite frankly, disappointing. never mind the fact that
jamie lee curtis can still rock it
(a fish called wanda, anyone?)... but the
chinese restauranteur whose mother weaves some sorta asian voodoo with her mystical fortune cookies? oh
puhleeze. rosalind chao must really be desparate for work to
take this role (and that horrid accent). on the bright side,
lindsay lohan... someone to keep an eye on. :P
i have to admit, i'm a george clooney fan. i dunno why. it's
sorta like the hugh grant thing, only he's not as good as that
yet. there were times though, i really thought clooney was on his a-game, like in the scene where he meets
catherine zeta-jones' character for the first time (who, btw,
looks amazing as usual), for divorce negotiations. it's almost comical, but i think george is better at these
roles than in any non-comedic one, like the
peacemaker. so intolerable cruelty was pretty enjoyable, to me.
the real kicker though was mystic river. knocked my socks off. you definitely have to see
this movie. clint eastwood is a real tour-de-force in this
movie, and he's not even in it. director, co-producer... he even wrote the musical score. great movie. i found
myself really engaged by the characters (not hard when you have
sean penn, tim
robbins and kevin bacon as your leads), and really rooting
for all of them. the denouement was a bit surprising, but this whole movie was a surprise. excellent film.
clint really knows what he's doing. i gotta watch
unforgiven sometime...
12.30.2003 friday five... really late
my latest kick at the friday five can... from dec. 26.
1. what was your biggest accomplishment this year?
hmmm, i can't seem to really remember accomplishments. i suppose there really aren't any. well, at work, i
don't really consider anything, unless getting props from project managers count. i guess i would consider my
trip to the balkans my biggest accomplishment... personally, i thought it was a great trip, and i learned a lot
about the region and the ppl living there.
2. what was your biggest disappointment?
my biggest disappointment? hmmm... well, i guess it would be the time in late october when i found out that...
that someone was hiding something from me. well, maybe hiding is not the right word, but let's just say, i was
a little shocked about the information i discovered. dropped into the wilderness and it took a while to climb
out of that hole...
3. what do you hope the new year brings?
i hope the new year brings new opportunities, tons of them. new opportunities to meet ppl (maybe a gf? that's
probably pushing it), new opportunities in my career, new opportunities to travel... yeah. change. change is in
the wind...
4. will you be making any new year's resolutions? if yes, what will they be?
nah, no real resolutions. they never get kept anyways. i'll have something more like wishes for the next year,
things to aim for. maybe it's just a way to temper my expectations.
5. what are your plans for new year's eve?
well, right now, i don't have any. i hafta check up on a couple ppl, see what they're up to, but if all else
fails, i'll probably chill at home for most of the night and then go out to watch the fireworks.
three straight days of updating! someone call the blog police!
aight, well, just wanted to update once more before the big 2004 hits... got about 4.5 hours to go here...
like i said before, i didn't really have any plans... angie said i could go to her family's place near köln if i
wanted to, but it's really just her family there, so i didn't want to intrude... i'd probably feel like a yahoo
there anyways...
then simone called me last night, as i was coming back from brussels (there to watch another movie - more on that
later), and told me that i could go with her to a party that a friend of hers is throwing... well, i'm not too
keen on that either, seeing as how i'd only know simone, but then, at least it's amongst friends, and not like a
family situation. so i'll probably go to that, check it out and if i don't really like it, i'll bail and just
watch the fireworks from the lousberg...
so i went to watch le divorce, a film
which seems a bit arthouse to me, judging by my complete lack of knowledge about it prior to watching... it's
set primarily in paris and in fact, almost half the dialogue is in french... well, i understood a bit of it, and
i tried to figure out the flemish subtitles, but i think i got most of it anyways...
anyways, it was pretty good... i don't really like kate hudson,
but naomi watts (was 2003 the year of naomi watts, or what?)
definitely more than made up for it. i was impressed by her american accent and her passable french, even though
she's a native australian... good showings by matthew modine
and sam waterston (of
law & order fame) as well.
well, that does it for me. guess the next time you catch me will be after the clock strikes 12, so to all, a
very happy new year!